The last few days the heat and humidity of Mumbai
seem to be getting me down. I have lots to do
- a new exciting project to plan;
- plenty of posts that I’ve written in my head, but not translated in to writing;
- some fundraising material to write and;
- a house to get ready for some guests…
I have plenty to be thankful for – husband, family, friends and quite importantly, for me at this point in life, the fact that I don’t have to go out each day and earn a living.
So you think I should be happy, no? Oh yes, I’ve written several posts on the subject, haven’t I? And many people tell me that they read this blog for inspiration…so shouldn’t I be constantly in positive-mode and feeling on top of the world?
The sad truth is, I haven’t been happy, positive, inspired or on top of the world for the last ten days or so. I go through the motions of it all and try my best to post here regularly…but it’s not been fun. And I haven’t been fun. No, no….I’ve been a pain in José’s side recently.
- become picky and crotchety and take offence at every small thing.
- been watching way too much television and am consequently pretty ‘absent’.
- taken to grumbling too much – about the heat – about the people in this city who, for the most part, I find unfriendly, distant and/or shallow. (What a snob, this Hyderabadi is!), and just about anything I can find to nag and grumble.
So that has been me for the past ten days!
Now you’re wondering about what all of the above has to do with a diamond necklace, right? Well, I thought this ‘gem’ of Rumi’s summed up my condition pretty well:
“You wander from room to room
Hunting for the diamond necklace
That is already around your neck!”
Yes, I have every reason to be happy and grateful. And I know that happiness and joy and peace can be found inside myself….yet I’m wandering around……And not only am I just wandering but I’m also pointing fingers at people and things outside myself, knowing fully well that what I experience on the outside is only a reflection of what’s inside of me.
So today I found my diamond necklace again – made myself happy and consequently there’s a much more positive air around our home. I’m going to try to make sure I keep my diamond necklace close!
When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others. ~ Anais Nin
May you be inspired – everyday!