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Dark Days

They’ve been coming on for some days now. Feelings of unease, lethargy and discontent. Something I can’t put my finger on. Unhappy with myself – who I am, what I’m doing.

Nothing really sets them off.  At one level, I’m oversensitive to how people behave towards me during this time, and at another I couldn’t care less about anyone else! (There, I said it!)

I start to wonder about the meaning of life and if I’ve made a difference to any one at all.

I begin to feel that I need to start all over again. To re-invent myself, perhaps.

The overall feeling is one of disinterest in all I do.

Oh yes, in spite of all the positive posts here, the self-acceptance ones, the happiness ones, the inspirational ones, the gratitude posts, there are days I still feel this way.

Do these feelings negate all the positive stuff I write? I think not.

They are a part of who I am. I have finally learned to own these feelings. To accept that they will come. To talk about them. And now to write about them.

I’ve learned not try and change the way I feel during such times. But to just wallow in these feelings knowing that this too shall pass.

I’ve learned to be aware and present to my feelings during this time. I no longer despair. I cannot control the dark days, but I can be open to what they teach me about myself and about life. This too is self-acceptance.

Dark days. They help me appreciate the many, many bright ones.

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“it’s not about controlling. it’s about being present. being open, being aware – and allowing it to come.” Terri St. Cloud

Do you experience similar times?

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22 Comments

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  5. Vishal Bheeroo Vishal Bheeroo July 27, 2015

    I’d lie if I say that such thing don’t bother. Of course it does but still making effort to appreciate good things and other people kindness.

  6. Kalpanaa Kalpanaa July 27, 2015

    I really like this idea of a ” be real ” post. You’ re always so positive Corinne, who would have thought that like the rest of us you’re subject to darkness. But then sadness and discomfort are as much a part of life as winter and they have their own beauty. Remember winter always turns to spring.

  7. Wendy McDonagh-Valentine Wendy McDonagh-Valentine July 26, 2015

    Thank you from the bottom of my heart for having the courage to write this. Although I find it sad that you have to be considered courageous to share your not-so-happy-moments in blog world I guess that’s just the way it is. I’ve recently been going thru a very difficult period in my life. Big changes in the works, going off of medication and starting a new one that we weren’t sure was right for me and finally coming to the realization that it doesn’t make me weak to admit that I need to be on anti-anxiety medication. My doctor thinks it’s hormonal. I’m 48 and I’m just starting to have subtle symptoms of peri-menopause. My brain has been going thru changes and I hate it. Vertigo this past week hasn’t helped and I’m honestly tired of hearing myself say I don’t feel well. I’ve been in a very dark place but feel like I’ve come thru the other side of the dark tunnel I’ve felt trapped in. It’s really given me so much more compassion for people suffering with mental issues. I can only describe it as feeling a sense of hopelessness and fear. Thank God for my husband who has been so good thru the last couple of months!! I could write about this for hours but I’ll stop here by saying it’s a beautiful day today and I’m happy to be smiling again!!!!! xoxo~ Wendy
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  8. G Angela G Angela July 26, 2015

    Dark days are very real; not easy to accept this feeling, because of the label I carry ( which are all very positive) and I prefer not to expose this part of myself as this makes me very vulnerable….agree with you .. in fact accepting this makes me humane and in a sense also gives an inner freedom to be who I am.. thanks for sharing !

  9. Laurel Regan Laurel Regan July 25, 2015

    I can totally relate, and in fact have been going through something similar lately. This too shall pass.
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  10. Geets Geets July 25, 2015

    The phase that you’re writing about.. ditto is the thing that is going on with me! Every single day, I open my laptop to start writing something and I end up browsing other blogs or websites.. As much as I hate this phase, it also helps me ponder over the good things, good times, good times.. with the ray of hope,
    This too shall pass..

    It takes courage to jot it all down.. it will all be over soon 🙂
    Keep Smiling 🙂

    Cheers
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  11. Lata Lata July 25, 2015

    Corinne, if life was all happiness and contentment, there would be no progress
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  12. Leanne Leanne July 25, 2015

    Hi Corinne – I agree that we all have dark days and we can’t always expect sunshine and rainbows. I think the deciding factor is whether these dark days pass or whether they start to take over our lives – that’s when we need to start treating them differently. Great post ~ Leanne

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | July 25, 2015

      You’re absolutely right, Leanne. We have to know the difference and should take action if the feelings continue!
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  13. Nina Nina July 25, 2015

    It took many many years to believe that my bouts of depression were just temporary states.
    The saying which you used “this too shall pass” helped me gain trust in myself. Just as those moments of joy, will pass, the same applies to sadness. This I know to be a truth.

    My sadness has given me strength.
    Sadness has a voice and it sits next to joy, both of equal stature.
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  14. Balroop Singh Balroop Singh July 25, 2015

    Dark days descend at all doors
    We welcome them unawares
    Their fascination soon wears off
    Wiped off by positive pods
    That awaken awareness, illuminate darkness!

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