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11 Things I’ve Learned Since Your Murder

I welcome one of the friendliest and talented bloggers I have the honour to know.  She is the most gentlest of souls and yet a fierce voice for women, especially those who are victims of domestic violence. Kim Sisto Robinson writes at My Inner Chick. Today, Kim shares what she learned from the tragic and brutal death of her beloved sister, Kay.

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Dear, Corinne, thank you for allowing me to Guest Post on your beautiful blog today. I am honored to be here in Mumbai to talk about my dear sister, Kay, who was murdered by her husband on May 26th, 2010. It was the saddest day of my life.

11 Things I’ve Learned Since Your Murder

It was a fine cry, loud and long, but it had no bottom and it had no top, just circles and circles of sorrow.” –Toni Morrison

1. drinking bottles of wine, praying for death, and trying to figure out ways to escape my new reality did not work. I had to walk directly, fully, and completely through the fire.

2. when somebody tells you who they are with words and actions, you better damn well believe them from the very beginning.

3. murder, deception, and darkness can happen in your own family. I know. It happened in mine.

4. no matter how ferociously you want to save somebody, you cannot. NO. That person can only save themselves.

5. the human body is capable of weeping uncontrollably for 365 strait days without ceasing. I find that fact astonishing.

6. God Lives.

7. the preparation of the past prepares you for the future. For example, I memorized the 23rd Psalm two months before my sister’s murder. After her murder on May 26th, it was the only prayer I could remember.

8. mourning never ends; it is only born into the world with its sharp- ugly- good for nothing claws. The pain must be woven into your new existence.

9. In the midst of your darkest hours, light finds a way through open windows.

10. the body may die, but the love endures forever and ever and ever.

11. my sister is NO LONGER a victim; she is now part of the solution to END domestic violence.

 

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Our family will have the 4th annual Kay Marie Sisto Walk To End Domestic Violence on May 31st, 2014. Info Here: http://www.theduluthmodel.org/events.html

Video of Kay’s Last Days / No More Silence:

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This post is written for the letter ‘K’ for the Blogging From A to Z April Challenge 2014.

124 Comments

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  3. My Inner Chick My Inner Chick April 18, 2014

    Renee,
    I remember saying to my husband, “did that really happen to Kay? I mean, did Mike really kill her?” He said, “Yes.” I said, “then why am I still walking, breathing, Living?”

    The only reason I can think of is that GOD is BIGGER than me, you know?

    You will be with your mother and dog again, Dear…Just as I will be with Kay.

    Life is so DAMN HARD, sometimes unbearable…but NO PAIN is lost. Ever.

    Love to you from Minnesota. Always. xxx
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  4. Renee Renee April 18, 2014

    ” the human body is capable of weeping uncontrollably for 365 strait days without ceasing. I find that fact astonishing.” – boy is this ever true. I’ve had such a rough year – losing my mother, having surgery only eleven days before her death (no I didn’t blog about this one), blowing out my knee one month after her death, losing my old dog who would have been 17 in May. But as we see in you, recovery happens though we’ll always carry the sadness and never be the same. You are so lovely and I think we can all feel your sister’s equally beautiful spirit shining through your words. Hugs…Renee

  5. Obsessivemom Obsessivemom April 15, 2014

    Very sorry to hear about your loss. I know how hard it is to remain positive in the face of tragedy and so I love 9, 10 and 11 and the hope that comes through.

  6. Beth Teliho Beth Teliho April 15, 2014

    So powerful, Kim. You are a warrior for your sister. I love #11. And #10. Hell, all of them. I hope the walk goes amazing.
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  7. Kathy Kathy April 15, 2014

    I love the truths that you have learned. Domestic violence is such a horrible thing. It is something that scars your soul forever. Such a horrible event.
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    • My Inner Chick My Inner Chick April 15, 2014

      —-Kathy,
      you are right, it scars the soul…but does not destroy it.
      thank you for reading. x

  8. Alison Alison April 14, 2014

    Kim, you’re one of the most inspiring people I know. Thank you for sharing your and Kay’s story. Much love.
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  9. Chris Carter Chris Carter April 14, 2014

    Oh Kim… precious soul… everlasting love… gifted woman…

    This guts me every time I read your words about Kay and her agonizing existence and eventual death.

    That picture of her walking on the bridge steals my heart and lifts it up higher than my sorrow, into hope and joy and relief. I keep memorizing her face, so that I can find her in Heaven.
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  10. ladyfi ladyfi April 14, 2014

    I’ve been a follower of Kim’s for many years. It’s good to see her here in India (if only virtually) so she can help others.
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  11. Adriana Boatwright ( Adriana Boatwright ( April 14, 2014

    Just here because I love Kim and is easy to just stop and show her love. Of course you are pretty lovable yourself.
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  12. monicastangledweb monicastangledweb April 14, 2014

    I love #11. That was all you, Kim. You turned Kay’s memory into something that gives back. We’ve all come to know her through your blog, but it really means something that her memory is making a difference in the lives of others who are dealing with domestic violence, and that is all thanks to you.

    I’m blown away by #9: In the midst of your darkest hours, light finds a way through open windows.

    That is truly powerful and uplifting.

    And, I agree. My favorite photo of Kay is of her on the bridge. I’ve seen it before and each time it has left me feeling like she’s sending a message from beyond.
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  13. Marie Marie April 14, 2014

    Light always finds a way. THIS IS SO TRUE Kim. I don’t know how this is possible but it is.
    Kay is safe on the other side.
    Xxxxxxx
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  14. Carolyn Hughes Carolyn Hughes April 13, 2014

    The passion and love and loss scream out in Kim’s words. Your courage and strength Kim in speaking out are humbling. Because every time you write about Kay’s death, you have to visit that dark place that I know you would rather forget. Instead you take light into the darkness and use Kay’s spirit to light the way for others. God Bless You. xx
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  15. Kimberly Kimberly April 13, 2014

    I think that the statement that you can try so hard to save someone but you can’t. They can only save themselves, speaks HUGE volumes. I think that sometimes we feel like we are to blame for events that happen to the people we are so desperately trying to save. We have to keep in mind that we did everything we could.
    You did.
    Love you so much.
    xoxo
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  16. Alka Alka April 13, 2014

    Heartbreaking. Sad.
    True, love endures. Thank you for sharing and spreading awareness.

  17. Sulekha Sulekha April 13, 2014

    So sorry for your loss, Kim. Broke my heart to read about your sister’s murder, the video is very moving. You are courageously working to create awareness about domestic abuse and that is commendable.

  18. shivakapoor shivakapoor April 13, 2014

    Thanks Kim ..Thanks for being so brave and so strong. It is in such life stories that we find the will to go on with all the pain, loss and difficulties in life with strength and endurance. Noone can take away the pain of your loss..but all I can say is I felt it with you and I am sure that the beautiful soul of your sister is smiling from the other side of the God and feeling proud of you!!!
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  19. Ananya Kiran Ananya Kiran April 13, 2014

    Hey Corinne, I have read KIM’s blog before, must say I admire her for everything she is and every word she writes !
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  20. Fab Fab April 13, 2014

    You make a very valid point, Kim – violence can happen in any country, any time, at any age. And yes, no matter how much we want to, we can’t help sometimes. I’m so glad you’ve started this movement – more women need the right support and courage to escape from an abusive relationship. Thank you Corinne, for introducing us to Kim!
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  21. Rajlakshmi Rajlakshmi April 13, 2014

    Domestic violence has consumed so many lives. Your post and the video is so moving and powerful. I don’t know what else to say. I am glad that your are fighting against the cause of your sister’s demise. One of mother’s cousin sister burned herself due to domestic violence. They still mourn and remember her. It breaks my heart everytime visit them.
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    • My Inner Chick My Inner Chick April 13, 2014

      O, I am so very sorry about your relative. I mourn for her, too. x

  22. Liz Liz April 13, 2014

    I like number 11 the most! Some good will and has come out of this horrific murder.

    • My Inner Chick My Inner Chick April 13, 2014

      Liz,
      I agree.
      #11 has been one of my greatest lessons. xx

  23. Carol Graham Carol Graham April 13, 2014

    I don’t have words – everything I want to say has already been said in the comments and seems empty to repeat them. I watched and read it and watched and read it again. What strength must have come out of this for her dear sister. When I speak to Battered Women\’s groups, every story I hear is so sad and so very unnecessary. How my heart goes out to all those who have to live with this.
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  24. Debi Debi April 13, 2014

    How great to see you here in Mumbai, Kim! And nice to meet you, Corinne! So, poignant as always, Kim. #1 on your list–yeah, we always have to walk through it. And #2–is so true! It’s funny how people will you tell you right up who/what they are, and so often we choose not to believe it. Xo
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    • My Inner Chick My Inner Chick April 13, 2014

      Debi,
      I shall never forget. Somebody asked me about Kay’s relationship w/ Mike. “When did it all begin?” they asked. “In the very beginning.” I answered. I only wish we would have known the outcome then. x
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  25. Sandra Sandra April 13, 2014

    Hi Corinne, thank you so much for having Kim over here she is truly amazing. She always speaks the truth and she always speaks from her heart.

  26. elizabeth elizabeth April 13, 2014

    Dear Kim – beautiful and powerful post. But you always create words to stir up our hearts and minds! I know one day we will meet but while we wait for that to happen, I am so very ucky to have you in my life! Corinne- thanks for posting this on your page- we need to protect our sisters, no matter where they live. xx

  27. Debbie Debbie April 13, 2014

    Outstanding list — ever so sorry you had to go through such heartache to compile it, though. Here’s hoping sadness will flee and happiness will descend upon you and your family and remain there! Love you bunches!
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  28. lisa lisa April 13, 2014

    This is a wonderful post, Kim, and you, my friend, are amazing.
    xo.

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