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Looking Within

Looking within, am I willing to even attempt that?

I said ‘attempt’ because it’s not always easy to do this. It’s so much easier to spend time on a whole lot of stuff that keeps me busy and prevents me from spending time with my soul.

What stops me from looking within? Am I afraid of what I’ll find out about myself? Am I afraid that I’ll have to take off the layers of masks that I’ve been putting on for different people and when the real me emerges, I won’t like her?

Lillhagensvan

We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light. ~ Plato

Yes, perhaps I’m afraid of the light, the light that will reveal all the ‘dark’ parts of me – my biases and prejudices, the parts where I’m holding on to resentments like treasures, the parts that are holding on to old wounds that don’t want to be ‘aired’, the stuff that I’m ashamed to own up to, the jealous side, the part that is so self-satisfied and doesn’t want to grow, the pretences and the insincerity, the insecurities, the anger and the bitterness. Layers well hidden.

Only when I look inwards with honesty am I able to understand myself and my motives. Only then can I start the process of self-acceptance. And only then can I truly grow.

From time to time I do take courage and look within. And I wonder why I am afraid to do this more often. Because when I truly look within, besides all those ‘dark’ parts I mentioned, I also see someone who loves deeply and laughs much, someone who is grateful, someone who is thoughtful. Only when I look within do I see ‘me’!

 

PS: This post was first published as a guest post on a blog that has been shut down. Re-posting it today, because it seemed so relevant to me.
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  2. Albert Albert July 29, 2013

    Very relevant and useful post. As someone with a meaning of life blog I think about these things everyday with no conclusive answer. This is useful as sometimes the l=things we don’t like about other people are characteristics we don’t like about ourselves deep down. On the surface we don’t always know this. Thanks for reinforcing the information and your article was enjoyable to read.

    Happy blogging!

  3. G Angela G Angela July 24, 2013

    I loved this post corinne… the last few days, I have been attempting a journey in ward – and its not been easy, the reason being the discomfort that comes from within, accompanied with sadness, regrets, in adequacy, self pity etc…. yes ! it takes a lot of courage to look within. I liked the last few lines of seeing oneself ….. its so wonderful to know that light and darkness coexist…. light shines brightly in darkness. Thanks for inspiring me my friend, its always a pleasure for me to read your posts.

  4. Roshni Roshni July 18, 2013

    We must accept and embrace ourselves for what we are, warts and all! 🙂

  5. bhavanas11 bhavanas11 July 17, 2013

    I am thinking now…I wonder how much I do that myself…I think I try but then do I really? What am I afraid of–shadows or just the discomfort of being so alone in a heart room with myself? Of strange noises and waves and a haunting unease…but I think I try and then I guess I shudder. Maybe that positive approach that you write about of seeing myself as a person in light may help…or would that be a way to avoid the shadow?

  6. femmefrugality femmefrugality July 6, 2013

    If I don’t keep them under control, those dark corners are all that end up showing, even in the light of day. That doesn’t mean I do look within as often as I should; I don’t. It just means I’m ashamed of how outwardly horrible I can sometimes become. Maybe horrible isn’t the right word. Maybe it’s more tired. Stressed. Impatient. I need to start looking within more to find my peace so I can allow myself to love more fully.

  7. Anne Anne July 4, 2013

    This is a lovely post, Corinne. I love the fact that you also mentioned the positive parts of ourselves. Too many times when we look within we only look at the negative side to try and fix this. We should always remember to look at our brighter, lighter side too because it encourages us to do better and be better.

  8. My Inner Chick My Inner Chick June 29, 2013

    –Corinne,
    thought provoking post. I appreciate.

    My “within” comes out thru my writing.

    Sometimes I look back and exclaim, “WOW, I didn’t know that about myself!”

    Xx

  9. Kajal Kajal June 26, 2013

    Nice post, Corrine.

    Why keep any grudges from anyone and from self. One must be able to accept oneself as they are -with the good and the bad equally. We all have those dark places within, its only when we realize there is no point in depriving it of our inner light that we get the courage to face ourselves.

    Thanks for the post 🙂

  10. Vishnu Vishnu June 26, 2013

    We learn a lot as we go within ourselves Corinne but no better experience than a jarring external experience to make us go within:) Once the world around us changes or becomes unstable, we are more inspired to go within ourselves and come to grips with our inner world!

  11. Damyanti Damyanti June 26, 2013

    As difficult it is, the process of looking inwards is rewarding. As a writer, I’m called upon to do it often, and it leads to some scary rides.

  12. melissa melissa June 26, 2013

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful post BS… when I read this, I was encouraged to go deeper. It is not an easy task nor a task taken in a hurry…

    Yes, I do see those good things in me too now 🙂

    Love you BS! You are wonderfully made!

  13. Martha Orlando Martha Orlando June 25, 2013

    What you’ve said here, Corinne, is true for all of us. Each one of us has those dark places within, but shining a light on what is good and honorable and noble within us helps us to stay positive and to let those characteristics be the ones to lead us forward and to grow us in the Lord. Remember, He has forgiven us the “bad” stuff and calls us to shine with His light!
    Blessings to you!

  14. Meena Menon Meena Menon June 25, 2013

    Lemme tell you, the ‘Me’ within you is indeed v v v beautiful!

  15. Lazy Pineapple Lazy Pineapple June 25, 2013

    To look inside ourself I believe we need peace of mind and solitude. It is a tough task to do it as we are afraid to find the faults and the negatives that reside in us. It takes courage to look inside your psyche Corinne. Most times we are surrounded with so much noise which drowns out our thoughts.

    Accepting ourselves completely with all our faults makes us confident.

  16. Suzy Suzy June 25, 2013

    A very thought provoking post Corinne. So true that we are afraid to see what our inner self reveals but just as you say the “me” we find is simply wonderful. Venture inwards and discover yourself.

  17. Adriana Boatwright ( Adriana Boatwright ( June 25, 2013

    This was so beautiful but I am aware you already know that. So i will just thank you for sharing.

  18. Joyce Joyce June 25, 2013

    Pretty deep. Dig a hole in the ground deep.

  19. janu janu June 24, 2013

    We all have these not so pleasant traits Corinne. Acceptance, acknowledgement and addressing them is the key. This seasonal internal cleaning helps a lot 🙂

  20. ushamenon ushamenon June 24, 2013

    Corinne this post is really wonderful!! Looking within is not only difficult but it is our own conscience which deters us. The dark corners are there deeply rooted within everyone. I really appreciate your determination to look within and realise your acceptance of the love hidden there which gives courage to face it bravely and ‘lovingly’. Thanks for sharing .

  21. Rachna Rachna June 24, 2013

    So aptly put. Many of us introspect but sometimes we skim the parts we are not comfortable with. We avoid them. You are right that it requires a lot of courage. And I think it is self-acceptance at its best when we can look at ourselves in the mirror, warts and all, and still love ourselves!

  22. Vrindavan Vrindavan June 24, 2013

    So practical and relevant. Thank you so much Corinne for capturing our fears to “look deeper”!!! Wishing you continued courage to constantly look within! xo

  23. B k chowla B k chowla June 24, 2013

    We can be as honest as we may want to be,but,at miles it is scary to look within for dark spots and accept those

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      But there’s no getting aways from ourselves, is there, Mr Chowla?

  24. Ruchira Ruchira June 24, 2013

    That was a very honest post and very true. Looking withing is a very difficult task and something that I hate to do but its essential for self growth! Unless we look within, we cant figure out how we are faring on the course of our life. Are we sticking to our goals, are we on the path we want to walk on or have we deviated.

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      About it being difficult, you’re so right, Ruchira. This year I started out with an exercise that led to memories I didn’t realize existed in me and let me tell you, I gave up quickly, because I couldn’t face them. But now I’m back on course and healing and growing.

  25. Alka Gurha Alka Gurha June 24, 2013

    Love your honesty and frankness. The first step is to acknowledgement. We all have our dark corners but most are wary of accepting.

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      I’m learning to be more and more authentic, Alka – I must tell you it’s not always easy. You’re so right, acknowledgement is the first step forward.

  26. Bhavya Bhavya June 24, 2013

    I too, am afraid to look into myself. Not because I am scared to see all the darkness lurking inside, but out of the fear that there is nothing I can do about it. That is false right Corinne? We can work on it na?

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      Bhavya, I’m convinced that looking within is the only way forward and somehow God/the Universe provides us the resources we need to heal and/change. We can work on ourselves – that’s the purpose of our life!

  27. Afshan Afshan June 24, 2013

    Really touched on reading this : (
    Its high time I too start looking in to myself even if I have to unmask !
    LOVELY write up Corinne
    Kudos

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      I’m glad it made sense to you, Afshan. We all need to constantly journey inward – but try to avoid it, because it’s hard work sometimes!

  28. Sulekha ( Sulekha ( June 24, 2013

    It is such a beautiful and honest post! I too am going through this journey and loving every minute of it.

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      Glad you’re journeying inward too, Sulekha – more exciting than a trip to the moon, don’t you think? 😉

  29. Deeps Deeps June 24, 2013

    That’s so beautifully conveyed, Corinne!

    Yes I feel it can do wonders to your sanity, to your mind when you are able to introspect your thoughts, when you’re able to look within you and acknowledge the real you 🙂

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      Thanks, Deeps. Introspection is so vital to growth of any kind – and yes, it sure keeps us sane!

  30. Harleena Singh Harleena Singh June 24, 2013

    Hi Corinne,

    That was beautiful indeed 🙂

    Yes, I think all of us have those hidden dark corners, and only few of us have the real courage to uncover the mask and show our real faces to the world. We all need that courage to look within and discover our true self before we try to do anything else.

    Thanks for sharing. Hope you are doing well 🙂

    • Corinne Rodrigues Corinne Rodrigues Post author | June 24, 2013

      Thanks, Harleena. It does take courage and a whole lot of determination to stick to the process of finding what makes us who we are!

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