I’ve been reflecting on my own behavior and temperament as I am prone to do. I think I learned something about myself today – but still have to analyse it some more.  However, I wanted to share it with you.

The first time I entered a swimming pool was when I was about five years old. Did I jump in? No. I was pushed in by a well-meaning lady who thought I should learn to swim. I sank to the bottom of the pool. I had the presence of mind to sit on the floor of the pool holding my nose so that the water didn’t get in. My Dad who was swimming close by dived in and brought me out. I suppose it could have been much more dangerous than it turned out. However, it left with me with no fear of water. I love the water and can play around in the pool for hours. However, I haven’t learned to swim yet!

I makes me begin to think that perhaps I’m basically a drifter. I do try to attempt new things – sometimes I’m pushed in to them, other times I jump in to them with a great deal of excitement. Take blogging for example, I jumped in on my own, and have been floating around for four years, but I’m wondering whether I will ever learn to really swim. In other words, do I have what it takes to make this blog something outstanding?  Let me rephrase that, do I really want to make this blog outstanding. At this point, I really don’t have a concrete answer.

While on vacation recently, my nephew was generous enough to give  me some time on their tablet to play Angry Birds.  He’s eleven and totally hooked on to the game. I tried it and was so enjoying playing around with the birds that I wasn’t really focusing on the pigs. My nephew kept telling me that the objective was to kill the pigs!  When I told him that I didn’t care and was just having fun, he thought I was mad.

Again, I ask myself: do I play a game to win? Almost never. I play for the fun of it. The winning is just the icing on the cake.

So maybe I’m not really a competitive person at all. Is that a bad thing, I wonder? I’m not even sure.

All I’m sure of is that I’m enjoying writing, connecting and playing around with this blog. Today I’m jumping in to this:

NaBloPoMo June 2012

A post every day for the month of June. Sometimes I’ll follow the prompts, and sometimes I won’t. But I’m sure I’m going to enjoy it.

Are you competitive? Or do you ‘play the game’ just for the joy of it?

May you be inspired – every day!

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