The last few days the heat and humidity of Mumbai seem to be getting me down. I have lots to do
a new exciting project to plan;
plenty of posts that I’ve written in my head, but not translated in to writing;
some fundraising material to write and;
a house to get ready for some guests…
I have plenty to be thankful for – husband, family, friends and quite importantly, for me at this point in life, the fact that I don’t have to go out each day and earn a living.
So you think I should be happy, no? Oh yes, I’ve written several posts on the subject, haven’t I? And many people tell me that they read this blog for inspiration…so shouldn’t I be constantly in positive-mode and feeling on top of the world?
The sad truth is, I haven’t been happy, positive, inspired or on top of the world for the last ten days or so. I go through the motions of it all and try my best to post here regularly…but it’s not been fun. And I haven’t been fun. No, no….I’ve been a pain in José’s side recently.
become picky and crotchety and take offence at every small thing.
been watching way too much television and am consequently pretty ‘absent’.
taken to grumbling too much – about the heat – about the people in this city who, for the most part, I find unfriendly, distant and/or shallow. (What a snob, this Hyderabadi is!), and just about anything I can find to nag and grumble.
So that has been me for the past ten days!
Now you’re wondering about what all of the above has to do with a diamond necklace, right? Well, I thought this ‘gem’ of Rumi’s summed up my condition pretty well:
“You wander from room to room
Hunting for the diamond necklace
That is already around your neck!”
~ Jalal-Uddin Rumi
Yes, I have every reason to be happy and grateful. And I know that happiness and joy and peace can be found inside myself….yet I’m wandering around……And not only am I just wandering but I’m also pointing fingers at people and things outside myself, knowing fully well that what I experience on the outside is only a reflection of what’s inside of me.
So today I found my diamond necklace again – made myself happy and consequently there’s a much more positive air around our home. I’m going to try to make sure I keep my diamond necklace close!
When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others. ~ Anais Nin
A lover of words. A self-acceptance blogger. A blogging coach. A book reviewer. A woman happily journeying through midlife, moving from self-improvement to self-acceptance and enjoying being herself.
Corinne writes at Everyday Gyaan, reviews fiction at CorinneRodrigues.com and encourages writers and bloggers at Write Tribe and offers offline coaching to writers and bloggers at The Frangipani Creative, located in Secunderabad, India.