2015 has been a year of great learning for me. I’ve learned to look a little more within myself and find creative resources deep within that help me to stay balanced, hopeful and above all grateful.

While I can go on listing all the wonderful things both big and small that I am grateful for in 2015, there’s one particular blessing I’d like to focus on.

As each year passes, I become surer that life has a way of bringing back to me lessons that I need to learn. When I think I’ve passed and have learned what I need to, I am presented with a situation that makes me realize that I’ve still got miles to go.

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Gratitude For A Lesson Learned in 2015

One lesson that I keep having to relearn is to stay away from people and situations that take away my joy and leave me with self-doubts. I managed to divorce drama, and it took a lot of inner strength to do so. I’ve also identified some key people in my life who through their behavior, remarks and ability to lay guilt on me, create a lot of unease in my life. In the last few months of the year, I’ve managed to keep contact with these people to the minimum. This might come across as being negative, but I know from the peace I experience that it is not!

While I owned my feelings and choices, I also used a practice of gratitude to make sure that I did not get bitter or vengeful. The fact that I had José to vent to and that he supports me in my decisions is a big blessing too. He has, over the years, been cautioning me about these people, but I loved to imagine that I’m above it all! That I finally allowed better sense to prevail and listened to him and trusted my inner voice, makes me grateful.

Gratitude as a discipline involves a conscious choice. I can choose to be grateful even when my emotions and feelings are still steeped in hurt and resentment. It is amazing how many occasions present themselves in which I can choose gratitude instead of a complaint.  – Henri Nouwen

I am most grateful for these people, because they’ve taught me more about myself and my ability to learn, adapt and stay true to myself.  I came to realize that they are never going to be what I want them to be – they are who they are – and I, probably, don’t live up to what they want me to be either. Peace followed this realization.

Now, I am able to communicate with these people, yet stand my ground and not feel guilty about my choices. Emotionally, I have dared greatly.  This is the greatest lesson of 2015 and one that I am most grateful for.

What are you most grateful for in 2015?

 

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This is my last post for the Gratitude Circle which I was happy to co-host with Vidya Sury for a year. Come January 2016, I am signing off from this commitment. Vidya will continue to host this feature.

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