Perhaps you’ll remember that my word of the year for 2019 is ‘Light’. So although so far, the year has considered of some ups and downs, I’m trying to shine light within myself. I’m trying to pull out of those dark places, the real me who is hiding. Hiding under layers of pain and heartbreak. Hiding under untruths that I’ve taken on board from other people’s opinions. Masking the guilt of wrong choices made. Camouflaging the fear of failure, the lack of belief in my own power. I realize that this year I’m being called not just to change but to transformation.
Change or Transformation?
Change is something I’ve undertaken often. It was a part of my life as I grew up in an Army home. Changing towns. Changing homes. Changing schools. Changing friends.
As I grew older, I’ve changed jobs, careers, cities. I’ve been an employee and an employer. I’ve been part of starting a movement, an NGO and a partnership firm. I’ve worked from home and now I’ve just set up a small studio to work out from. In short, change is my friend.
Transformation? That’s a much deeper idea than change. This year, I’m trying to work not just on change but on transformation.
This is not a time of mere change. This is a time of transformation, and transformation comes not out of scarcity but out of the context of possibility, responsibility, and sufficiency.
How am I going about this? By questioning my values, the guiding principles of my life, and trying to find the essential elements of my character.
This is taking a lot more work. This calls for a lot of “down time” – time to just be, to reflect, to dig deeper into myself.